I'm afraid of being left behind. Not in a literal sense but on the non physical emotional and mental planes of reality. So we find our temporary escapes through unrealistic scenarios wildly fueled by the unprecedented consumption of alcohol, extreme monetary expenditures and the endless search for solitude or people to relate to. To find happiness and the meaning of life by pretending to delay the inevitable.

I have no tastes for the concept of young adulthood not only because of the requirements of maturity and responsibility it brings with it but also the pressures of social expectations such as careers, dating and marriage and above all, the worry for the future. It's really a fear of the unknown driven by the knowledge of being stranded behind all alone if one cannot socially progress within the confines of society's standards.

If one wasn't able to scrape by acceptable grading scores in school, the educational institution logically dictates that they'd be prevented from graduating amongst their peers.

If one didn't have any financial funds at an early age, it was not as worrisome as it would be if one were approaching an older age when circumstances require stronger financial independence to fulfill certain obligations and contracts.

If one cannot find a suitable partner, it would not be as important in one's years of youth but they would noticeably become ostracized from a private world inhabited only by couples' only social events and circles as the years progress.

Thus, the elders seek out the younger who are always a favoured preference as they are more easily impressionable upon by using money, alcohol, laughter, memories, ideals and causes to flow and revolve amongst these niche social groups. Whether one believes these actions to be destiny or by choice, even it cannot last forever. It is the house of the lonely.

Just as Buddist sects realize that to be born means that other living creatures must suffer for our well being, there are just the facts of life that I must recognize. Reality dictates.